Wow. I feel both lighter and heavier today.
On Monday at couples therapy I was able to indicate, while crying like Niagara Falls, that the marriage cannot go on as it is.
This is the big one I've been avoiding and fearing for a while.
The world did not come to an end. While I knew it would not intellectually, I still did emotionally have concern about that.
C is okay. She's only lashed out once - and was correct in her assessment that our move to the Midwest from the east was a mistake. At least it was in the sense of the gay thing. She then apologized. I do not think I would be doing as well as she is. Her poise and strength here make it all that much harder.
I know there will be tough times going forward - but we have the chance to do this well.
Goals for the day:
1. Show up - be available for C
3. Keep taking the psych meds - yep I'm back on anti-depressants for the past few days.