But it's not supposed to be.
Today I went in feeling very down, feeling trapped again.
I did some hard work. The insight for the day is that some of that overwhelming pain I've been feeling regularly since coming out to myself and C is grief. Grief for my relationship with C. Grief for the loss of who I thought I was/appeared to be.
Much of the rest of the day went well. I felt lighter.
Things with C are tense. Not sure exactly what happened but she's mumbling she can't take this any more.