Been an interesting couple of weeks. Irene dumped a lot of rain including a inch in the garage and basement. Other parts of our county were a lot worse off as was work - I got called in just as the hurricane was hitting its peak. Had a meeting at work with those above me - our relationship has been damaged perhaps irrevocably. I bear some of the responsibility; I think they bear much more than I do. Have two good nibbles on jobs. One is a bit closer to family. The other is significantly further away.
It seems that the muscles in my upper back have tightened up (due to stress?) in a way that is impacting a nerve on my right side. I've been incapacitated at times with the pain. Last night (Monday) I was able to sleep for more than a couple of hours at a time. No such luck tonight.
I went to acupuncture today and he did a bit of acupressure as well. The regular MD has not been a lot of help. There diagnoses have been all over the map. I cancelled the scheduled MRI because of the co-pay - $1,000! The vicodin and then percocet prescribed doesn't touch the pain.
The acupuncture seems to work.
And interestingly enough when I am active and acknowledge the pain I seem to do better. Ignoring it doesn't work - interesting corollary to the larger situation. Ignoring being gay and married doesn't work.
Bottom line - am on the mend slowly. Seeing this as indicative of and likely caused by where I am vis a vis C. It's causing stress that is eating me away, consuming me. But when I sit with and acknowledge it all, the stress moves back.
Instead of life imitating art we have body imitating psyche.
C has been amazing throughout.